OMYGOSH it's been so long since i last posted!!!! XDXD

haha anyway, to a few people:

xinle!: hahaha well, she's not found it yet, so proves it's not that bad right? :) anyway i've nothing much to say to your STALKER TENDENCIES XP have fun!

joyce!: well, me's fine! as fine as you can see lol =D going back to tuition oh hahaha i sorta realised by now :P oops! X) all the best in your two years!

sy!: hehehe you're not the only one who's been telling me that! koala-bear too HAHAHA! have fun training!


Now on to some serious stuff...

my life's not been as colourful as everyone thinks. yes it's true i have her, but it's not like i can be with her all the time yet, where i can safely forget all my troubles.

everytime i'm with her, i'm wishing it could all never stop, never end.
but time always flies, when you're on top of the world.

and all too soon, reality comes crashing back down on you.

my mother.

those words explain it all, for all that i know.
victory's so close, yet it's always stayed at that distance.
how long's it been, two years? three years?
three long years.
what.
the.
hell.
i know all you people say i should focus on what i have, rather than what i have not.
which, essentially, is the emotional backing any mother could provide.
any. mother. but. mine.

and i really should.
but no matter how much happiness you have in your life, how can anyone ignore the pain and misery of another integral part??
that's not to say i'm not appreciative of my happy times.

i thank her for the wonderful times i've had so far, and of course hope to have many more ahead of us.
and, even though many of you may not agree with my views, walk down the red carpet with her too!
that's all i have to say for now.
except for the li'l message that's not meant for everyone else XD ~~thanks for all and i love you