What did I do wrong?
That caused all this to happen?
What indeed, did I do so wrong?
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
It is fortunate to have hope...
that is the quote with which I begin this post. I am not sure if my decision to agree to go through with this is in fact right or the best; I only know that this period of time might do us some good. I guess your main motivation for doing this is because of the next 5 or 6 years abhead of us where we won't to see each other. Might as well make full use of this chance to do something right isn't it? you may think to yourself. But whatever you think, I'll always be behind you. I know sometimes I come of as flirtatious to other girls but in fact I see them as only friends. And if you know me well enough I guess you'll understand if I say my interactions with other people are just a learning opportunity for me, to learn about what life is like for these people as well as to learn what life is about for me. No matter how much you think it may be unfair to me but you'd still want things to be like that or how others may see it as selfish and all, my decision as of now is to wait for you. I will attempt to learn too and improve on myself, but I can't actually really guarantee that I won't start going out with a couple of girls here and there. Deep down I know that I need these experiences to teach me the meaning and the value of true love, you know? What I mean is that these encounters with other girls will never really replace what I have with you - they're only there to help me learn what it is like to be a good person, what it means to live as a good man. And I hope that no matter what I may end up doing in the future you will not be too affected by it. At the end of this intermission I really hope to be with you. In a relationship where we both appreciate what each other has done, where everything in life is a learning opportunity for us. But as of now, if this is what you feel is the best instance for us, then I will go along with it, and try to learn your way of learning things, try to see things from another perspective :)
I really hope you don't take this post the wrong way - at the end of the day, I still love you. I just need to know why I get so excited about other people and learn how not to be like that in the future when I'm finally with you. So I can't guarantee any tangible things but only that my heart will always be with you. I want you to be happy, but i have to learn how. And in the meantime, I want to leave you with this hope that one day we'll be together again. I wish to leave a glimmer of hope with you, a ray of light that will guide you through the tough times ahead; a ray of light that will make you know no matter what happens I will always want the best for you; a ray of light that tells you you can always confide in me no matter what happens. And so I end off this post with the very same quote I began it with - It is fortunate to have hope; that's why I'm giving it to you.
I love you
that is the quote with which I begin this post. I am not sure if my decision to agree to go through with this is in fact right or the best; I only know that this period of time might do us some good. I guess your main motivation for doing this is because of the next 5 or 6 years abhead of us where we won't to see each other. Might as well make full use of this chance to do something right isn't it? you may think to yourself. But whatever you think, I'll always be behind you. I know sometimes I come of as flirtatious to other girls but in fact I see them as only friends. And if you know me well enough I guess you'll understand if I say my interactions with other people are just a learning opportunity for me, to learn about what life is like for these people as well as to learn what life is about for me. No matter how much you think it may be unfair to me but you'd still want things to be like that or how others may see it as selfish and all, my decision as of now is to wait for you. I will attempt to learn too and improve on myself, but I can't actually really guarantee that I won't start going out with a couple of girls here and there. Deep down I know that I need these experiences to teach me the meaning and the value of true love, you know? What I mean is that these encounters with other girls will never really replace what I have with you - they're only there to help me learn what it is like to be a good person, what it means to live as a good man. And I hope that no matter what I may end up doing in the future you will not be too affected by it. At the end of this intermission I really hope to be with you. In a relationship where we both appreciate what each other has done, where everything in life is a learning opportunity for us. But as of now, if this is what you feel is the best instance for us, then I will go along with it, and try to learn your way of learning things, try to see things from another perspective :)
I really hope you don't take this post the wrong way - at the end of the day, I still love you. I just need to know why I get so excited about other people and learn how not to be like that in the future when I'm finally with you. So I can't guarantee any tangible things but only that my heart will always be with you. I want you to be happy, but i have to learn how. And in the meantime, I want to leave you with this hope that one day we'll be together again. I wish to leave a glimmer of hope with you, a ray of light that will guide you through the tough times ahead; a ray of light that will make you know no matter what happens I will always want the best for you; a ray of light that tells you you can always confide in me no matter what happens. And so I end off this post with the very same quote I began it with - It is fortunate to have hope; that's why I'm giving it to you.
I love you
Saturday, July 23, 2011
What's gotten into you? All of a sudden....
Sigh life, is unpredictable. But I will trudge on. No matter what, as long as I'm alive and breathing, I appreciate what I have in life, I'll fight on.
Really, I appreciate what I have.
Even the times when you get all suspicious of me when I haven't even done anything.
Even when you don't tell me stuff "cos you didnt see the need to", while nagging at me to tell you everything.
Even then.
Because I love the look in your eyes when they light up as you rattle on about this incident at school.
Because I love holding on to you as you lean in to my embrace.
Because I love you. I really do.
And I hope it will suffice.
Sigh life, is unpredictable. But I will trudge on. No matter what, as long as I'm alive and breathing, I appreciate what I have in life, I'll fight on.
Really, I appreciate what I have.
Even the times when you get all suspicious of me when I haven't even done anything.
Even when you don't tell me stuff "cos you didnt see the need to", while nagging at me to tell you everything.
Even then.
Because I love the look in your eyes when they light up as you rattle on about this incident at school.
Because I love holding on to you as you lean in to my embrace.
Because I love you. I really do.
And I hope it will suffice.
Monday, May 02, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
I dare say, today 28th April 2011, was a day of no regrets.
Had to rush off for H3 test halfway thru rehearsal, hope that didn't affect syf morale! ^^
It felt kinda cool marching in with my violin though :P
Anyway. The period before ms ku came in, we were already waiting with sweaty palms! And OMGGGG my bow VIBRATED on the first note of funeral march cos too tight! Aarghhh whoever said to tighten!!! Lucky couldn't hear!!
Sweaty palms.
During Janacek my fingers got so wet that I nearly lost grip of my bow! Came in presto with my fingers ttly flat against the bow. It's a miracle there even was sound!
Hahaha and on the last note of funeral march my thumb suddenly weakened OMFG I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA GIVE WAY AND MY BOW WOULD DROPPPP
BUT. When we walked out of the hall, with the Gold with Honours ringing in our ears, we had no regrets. We made it. Simple as that. =)
p.s. loved the cheer cos it was undoing nearly half a year of stress! Thanks chamberrrr I knew we could do it! <33
Had to rush off for H3 test halfway thru rehearsal, hope that didn't affect syf morale! ^^
It felt kinda cool marching in with my violin though :P
Anyway. The period before ms ku came in, we were already waiting with sweaty palms! And OMGGGG my bow VIBRATED on the first note of funeral march cos too tight! Aarghhh whoever said to tighten!!! Lucky couldn't hear!!
Sweaty palms.
During Janacek my fingers got so wet that I nearly lost grip of my bow! Came in presto with my fingers ttly flat against the bow. It's a miracle there even was sound!
Hahaha and on the last note of funeral march my thumb suddenly weakened OMFG I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA GIVE WAY AND MY BOW WOULD DROPPPP
BUT. When we walked out of the hall, with the Gold with Honours ringing in our ears, we had no regrets. We made it. Simple as that. =)
p.s. loved the cheer cos it was undoing nearly half a year of stress! Thanks chamberrrr I knew we could do it! <33
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Random moments of inspiration: Good leadership does not start with making your followers love you; rather, it is about loving your followers first... Omg had this random thought when i was watching lion king :D (The musical was pretty good, but still the tickets were rather ex D:) More about the quote. I realized that true leadership began with being compassionate to your people. Trying too hard to make them like you would sometimes just result in appalling failures rather than success. This is partly because of the fact that it is impossible to please everyone. It is impossible to know what your people want and even then, different people have different wants and it is impossible to cater every single desire. As such, it is only possible for a leader to do things based on the love he has for his people and not what will make them love him. In many ways this is a problem of doing what is best for the people rather than doing what they want I guess hahaa. In short, Don't please them. Love them.
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