It is fortunate to have hope...

that is the quote with which I begin this post. I am not sure if my decision to agree to go through with this is in fact right or the best; I only know that this period of time might do us some good. I guess your main motivation for doing this is because of the next 5 or 6 years abhead of us where we won't to see each other. Might as well make full use of this chance to do something right isn't it? you may think to yourself. But whatever you think, I'll always be behind you. I know sometimes I come of as flirtatious to other girls but in fact I see them as only friends. And if you know me well enough I guess you'll understand if I say my interactions with other people are just a learning opportunity for me, to learn about what life is like for these people as well as to learn what life is about for me. No matter how much you think it may be unfair to me but you'd still want things to be like that or how others may see it as selfish and all, my decision as of now is to wait for you. I will attempt to learn too and improve on myself, but I can't actually really guarantee that I won't start going out with a couple of girls here and there. Deep down I know that I need these experiences to teach me the meaning and the value of true love, you know? What I mean is that these encounters with other girls will never really replace what I have with you - they're only there to help me learn what it is like to be a good person, what it means to live as a good man. And I hope that no matter what I may end up doing in the future you will not be too affected by it. At the end of this intermission I really hope to be with you. In a relationship where we both appreciate what each other has done, where everything in life is a learning opportunity for us. But as of now, if this is what you feel is the best instance for us, then I will go along with it, and try to learn your way of learning things, try to see things from another perspective :)

I really hope you don't take this post the wrong way - at the end of the day, I still love you. I just need to know why I get so excited about other people and learn how not to be like that in the future when I'm finally with you. So I can't guarantee any tangible things but only that my heart will always be with you. I want you to be happy, but i have to learn how. And in the meantime, I want to leave you with this hope that one day we'll be together again. I wish to leave a glimmer of hope with you, a ray of light that will guide you through the tough times ahead; a ray of light that will make you know no matter what happens I will always want the best for you; a ray of light that tells you you can always confide in me no matter what happens. And so I end off this post with the very same quote I began it with - It is fortunate to have hope; that's why I'm giving it to you.

I love you